Hello! Yes, I still exist. I know I haven't blogged in forever. There has been a ton going on, which you would think would mean I would blog more... instead it seems that I haven't blogged at all... Yeah. However, as I am now 34 weeks pregnant I have a million and one thoughts constantly running through my head and cannot sleep. So why not blog about it?
I actually just created a new sleep list in the hope of that helping since youtube keeps betraying me and has even more stupid ads. It has songs from The Hobbit, Brave and Les Mis. My child shall be a nerd. I also really need to upload all my other music onto this laptop so I can reset up all my playlists...
So what's going on with me, you may ask? (Because you have to care a little if you are bothering reading this. If not ... well, go away stupid, and stop reading.) I am in my second semester of grad school, and yes I am working and going to school while being pregnant. I'm also still tutoring on the side. People seem utterly amazed by this. I got a 4.0 last semester, making A's in all three of my classes. How awesome is that? I plan on the same this semester, and to start getting more involved and doing conferences and such starting in the summer. Grad school is painfully expensive by the way.
Speaking of expensive, Sean and I bought a house!!! Xander's room shall start being fixed up tomorrow, as I am have major anxiety issues about having it ready, and I'm making up my hospital bag this weekend. My baby shower at work shall be February 28th at 2:30. My previous boss is putting it together and I'm pretty excited. My baby shower for friends and such will be March 1st. My friend Nikki and my sister are working on it with me. I wish I could have everyone at my house, but it just isn't that big. My sister-in-law Heather is putting together a baby shower for that side of the family, as some don't travel much and also don't like cats and such, so it's easier to do it else where. As it is, it better not rain or I don't know where people will park. I also want to have some of the stuff outside. Still, I love my new house. So much better than the old one. Less work. Bigger living room. Everything on one floor. Now if I could just get the laminate installed in the last two rooms and the porch roofed and screened, things would be more awesome...
So as I've mentioned... I'm 34 weeks pregnant. Don't get me wrong - I am beyond thankful and blessed that I was able to get pregnant and that I'm having this child and all that jazz. However, I just don't think I was quite prepared for it. I've not been around any pregnant women a ton, and had only really heard all the good stuff. Let me tell you, there is plenty of bad stuff... Back pain (which I had already), weird stabbing leg pains as ligaments stretch, trouble breathing, stretch marks (oh god, I look like a tiger. And yes they have meaning you can give them and such but lord help... they are everywhere. And no, lotion doesn't matter. It's all a lie. If you are going to get them - you will get them. Apparently they think it's also majorly genetic, so I can blame my mom), and many other things. However, I think the oddest thing I'm having trouble with is the baby moving. I understand most people look at it and see it as a miracle, and Sean's cousin even told me she used to just watch it. But it literally freaks me out. I can see the baby moving across my stomach, and when he kicks/punches me my whole belly shakes... it's just the freakiest thing.... I know, I'm not normal.
I love him. I can't wait to have him, though he seriously needs to wait cause he has to develop more, and I need to finish his room and I'm scared to death of the whole birthing thing to begin with, but lord I miss me. And my thighs are huge....
Can you tell I'm having some issues? But let me reiterate - I am thankful. I am blessed. I love him. I will cherish him even more when he gets here (and that also means I get to go back to my body!).
Alexander Cole Willoughby is due March 24th. Wish me much luck and send me prayers. Also, I'm registered at Target, Toys R Us and Walmart. All gifts are appreciated and loved :P We will be calling him Xander (when not using Alexander) because I hate Alex and I know everyone will insist on shortening his name (which drives me bonkers). Yep, yep. I'm doing a forest type theme with his room with Owls and foxes and trees, and porcupines and cute animals. I have all my old children's books. I want my nursery!!!
Well... I guess that's enough rambling for now, huh?
Night folks!
